I broke my sobriety over the weekend. I wonder why I do this to myself when I know I'm better off without drinking. I suppose the final truth is that sometimes I still want to drink and while most often I find the strength not to, there are times when I give in. I won't dwell on it, but since this is a recovery blog, I'm compelled to honesty.
On another subject, my employer cut everyone's pay by 20% yesterday. With it, our hours are also cut so I'll be working a 4-day week starting next week. The paycut will be a burden, but I can tighten my belt and get through it. I'm actually glad for the extra day. I can attend a yoga class and I'll have more time for the new business so I'm looking on the bright side.
A week ago I was thriving, now I feel like I'm just getting through. Life. Choices. Time to surrender.