New Moon in Aquarius Intentions

It's that new moon time of the month again and time to set desires/intentions for the coming moon cycle. This new moon is in the sign of Aquarius and falls in my 4th house.

The Aquarius influence in the fourth house implies a strong demand for freedom in the affairs of the home. The native has some quality that marks him/her as distinctively different from others, although this may not be immediately apparent. This is far less obvious than when Uranus is in the first house but is perhaps even more explosive and far-reaching in the fourth. The native conceives ingenious methods and techniques with which to tackle his/her objectives.

I found the above at this site and I have to say it really rings true for me. I've always been reluctant to share my living space and have found it somewhat confining when I shared it with one other person. I especially like to be able to decorate my space in a way that resonates with my soul and conveys my personality. It's hard to do that when there's another person trying to do the same thing.

Which makes it especially interesting that I find myself liking the communal living situation as well as I do. I think it's because I do have my own space, albeit rather small, which I can create as my own and retreat to while sharing the public spaces with my peers.

And of course my home life is in big question right now. Brent is ready for me to come live with him and a big huge part of me wants that to happen. Not only because I love him but because I'm so ready to be someplace for awhile, someplace where I feel rooted, someplace where I can grow food and do ritual and just be for awhile. The problem is that it's Brent's place and I can have a problem with turning over too much power in situations like that so I need to be really clear if that's what I decide to do. I need to make sure that we're agreed about the equality of the relationship, what we both want and expect from it, and most importantly, how committed he is to supporting my recovery.

So with all of that in mind, here are my desires/intentions for this new moon:

Meditate daily to get clear about what I really want for my next living arrangement.
Be patient while my ruling planet, Mars, is retrograde in Leo, in my 10th house of career,
while I'm looking for a job.
Hold weekly meetings for the women here in the home (I started this last week - it was
great!)
Remain sober and practice with my tools: chanting, creative visualization, journaling,
DBT skills, astrology, tarot, meditation and prayer.

I think that's enough for this month. I'll follow up on the full moon on February 28th which falls in the last degree of Leo conjunct my natal Uranus. Look out.

Right now I'm headed up the mountain to hopefully catch a glimpse of Venus and Jupiter.

Wolf Moon in Leo

Tonight is the both the first and the largest full moon of 2010. Called the wolf moon by Native Americans because the wolves howled their lonely song to it on cold winter nights in the Rocky Mountains. Wolves. Full moons. Rocky Mountains. It doesn't get much better than that.

I'm visiting Lakeside by way of Polson where I met up with a handsome kitty cat and got some good feline loving. I'm going to visit some friends and leave for Butte again on Sunday.

I was looking at the new moon intentions I wrote two weeks ago and the only one I didn't follow through on was blogging daily and there was nothing I could do about that. My internet connection at the 1/2-way house went down last Friday and hasn't come back yet. I'm trying to figure out a way to make sure I can always get hooked up to the net. I do so much of my life on-line now: a lot of my sobriety support, my blogging (which is also sobriety support), banking, staying in contact with family and friends. It really messes me up when I can't get on the web for long periods of time. I'm at the library in Kalispell now, but it's not the same as sitting with my own computer, a cup of coffee and my own time in which to browse, check your blogs, read Planet Waves, answer e-mail, etc.

As for my other intentions: I am still sober (approaching 90 days); I do believe; I am imagining the rest of my life; I am exploring education and career opportunities but have nothing to report yet and despite still being homeless and jobless, all in all, I'm feeling pretty good about things. Because it's not about things, is it? It's about people and friendship and love and support and faith. Hell, I'm rich.

I'd like to send out some special love to Claudia Cunningham, author; Julie Wenner, Alley Grazer; Miss R, one freakin' incredible human being, and Chani, another one of those. These women, along with my family and many, many others just make me want to be a better person. Thanks, ladies.

New Moon in Capricorn

Tonight's new moon is a powerful one, coinciding with a solar eclipse. Because it conjuncts my natal moon in Capricorn, it creates a doorway, a portal of sorts, an opportunity for a deep emotional transformation. The moon is our emotional life and with mine conjunct Saturn and in Capricorn I came in with my share of emotional seriousness. This new moon/eclipse is offering me a chance to move beyond the weight of my early emotional life, to integrate the lessons I've been working on for awhile and to take what I've learned to a new level of awareness. I love it when the planets step in to help and when I'm present through my recovery to work with them. Here are my intentions/wishes for this new moon:



1. Remain sober.


2. Start imagining the rest of my life.


3. Explore education/career opportunities.


4. Blog daily.

5. Believe.

In two weeks, at the full moon, we'll see where I am with imagining a brand new life, what I'm doing to make it happen and how I'm faring in my sobriety. In the meantime, I'd like to hear some of your intentions/wishes.