I'd like to apologize to anyone in AA that I offended with my last post. Many AA members in my face to face community and in the blogging community have been really wonderful to me and I'm afraid it sounded a lot like I don't appreciate it. I do. Very much.
I still feel very conflicted about AA and probably what I should've said was that AA feels the same to me in many ways as the Baptist church did. I'm starting to gain some understanding of why this is, but it's still very much in process and I'm not ready to write anymore about it further at this time.
In the meantime, my commitment to sobriety is strong and right now I feel good with what I'm doing to support and encourage that commitment. Between therapy, getting signed up with the local cd center - which happens next week, finally! - , work, exercise, friends, Brent, writer's group and whatever else comes up I'm managing to stay just busy enough and still have time to give much consideration to the changes that are taking place within me. I don't have much money, but I have time to focus, time to rest and prepare myself good food, time to write, time to pray, even time to do absolutely nothing.
I'm also doing some interesting reading which I will post about more in the coming days. I hope you'll keep coming back. Pun fully intended.