Wednesday, December 17, 2008

SLIP

After 35 days sober, I had a slip. I feel a little discouraged, but not devastated. If I can make it through the next couple of days without drinking again I think I can regain my footing. A phone call from a good friend last night helped a lot. Thanks, Wendy. I'm writing here to keep myself honest and to help me get back on track. I don't want this to turn into nightly bottles of wine with the occasional bottle of vodka thrown in for good measure. I don't want to continue to disappoint the people that love me and believe in me and I don't want to lose the momentum that my hunting experience initiated. I don't want to feel bad and continue to damage my body. I don't want to experience life through the haze of alcohol.

5 comments:

Olivia said...

I admire you for your honesty, Angela. We are all on a journey filled with slips and starting over. I wish you much clarity and peace in your new start. Love, O

Angela said...

Thank you, Olivia. :)

pvslayer said...

You knock my socks off, my dear, sweet friend.

Anonymous said...

Been there, and it's hard, but don't forget the big picture. you are a treasure, a star (the gold kind) with a heart to match, and a moment or even months of madness will never take that away because love is what you're made of.

Angela said...

Wow. That is just the nicest thing ever. I wish I knew who you were.