I've done well with following through on the intentions I set at the new moon. As part of my time in the East, from the spring equinox to the summer solstice, I have been practicing very, very good self-care habits. I exercise several times a week (okay, usually 3), sauna 3-4 times a week, I'm eating whole, healthy, organic as much as possible - lots of fruits and vegetables (okay, and some chocolate), I'm allowing myself to rest as much and as often as I need to and I'm taking long frothy baths and shopping with friends and painting my toenails fire-engine red and okay, better stop right there.
But the most important thing, the main thing, priority #1, is I'm staying sober.
It's a good thing I've given myself this time because it's all going to change very soon. Like immediately! I obtained a job managing a little hotel in Lakeside, MT called the Sunrise Vista Inn. The name is something of a joke because it's really the owner's house that now constitutes what once was a very sweet view of Flathead Lake. Now you get to watch the sunrise over the rooftop of his gigantic house! The job starts May 1st. It looks like I will move the weekend before that - which is only two weeks away!
I can't begin to express how excited I am about this and how grateful I feel for the opportunity. The job runs from May-September and comes with a rent-free house all year round for the manager. Um, that would be me. The next two weeks will be a whirlwind of packing and moving and I groan now to think of it. But I hope that once I'm in there will be a breathing period before the busy months of July and August.
Also, this puts a serious kink in my outside treatment plans. I know I will continue to see a therapist, but I'll have to get a new one in the county where I'm moving. I don't think I can do any additional groups or other therapy. I'll be lucky to get to the occasional AA meeting. I am not going into any fear over this, but I want to stay very aware of the choices I'm making and monitor how well I'm responding to those choices. And of course how everyone around me is responding as well! My commitment to sobriety is stronger than ever.
I feel an affinity with nature that grounds me to the earth and tells me that she needs healing as much as I. I want to grow a few simple clean vegetables and live simply, working hard and enjoying the fruits of my labor. I want to cultivate peace and good will and cooperation. My heart is a repository. Of course, there is always that batshit thing I could do. Sober, of course.